this is what's happening in my stomach right now

 

I am in so much fuckin pain.     I'm waiting to go to the doctor... 2 more hours.  I'm starting to get a little panicked...  I read more on what I have and I didn't realize it's really dangerous if it goes untreated too long.  potentially fatal, even, but I'm not scared of that.  I am pretty sure though, that things are probably starting to get infected because I've let it go for several days now, and the pain is coming in sharp intense bursts all of a sudden.   fuck dude, what if I have to have fucking surgery.... fuck it hurts so bad, I feel like my intenstines are going to fucking burst dude  =(

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not to mention how I'm soo terribly hungry but I can't fucking EAT :(

this last week has been awful.  actually, 09's really had a rough start for me,  wow.   not cool  =/

thankfully my bestest minion was here for a few days and was able to take care of me, that happened to be good timing I guess...
fuck I really hope this can get under control   =(     I NEED to learn to suck it up and go to the damn doctor when it's appropriate - not going the other night when I sprained my ankle was one thing... but this is fuckin serious...   I gotta grow up  a little in that regard...  

=(  =(    fuckkk it hurts!!    send me some good energy please,  I really don't want to be undergoing surgery !!!!      =(((