Lame weekened this is shaping up to be so far.   My plans for today got fucked up bigtime and now I'm out several hundred bucks and got nothin to do now either....  I'm trying to find something to do and not think about it since there's nothing I can do about it, but I'm having a hard time not being pissed off.  There's nothing quite like throwing away large sums of money for no reason.   this is actually the 2nd friday in a row I've done that too, although last week's wasnt as much...

ehh my fuckin head hurts =(   I'm stressed out.  I think I need to smoke copious amounts of pot or something.   kill some more brain cells, woo.
tomorrow's lookin like errand day since I haven't had any time for that in the last two weeks, and I gotta work on Sunday (which I guess is good, considering I really need the fuckin cash now).
so yeah... great weekend ahead.   I guess there's potential for tomorrow night not to blow, but we'll see.

at least as soon as I got the news earlier that I should go home, I was complimented on my baldness twice in a row on my way back.   the first came in the form of a crude male compliment from a homeless guy...  but then was one from a nice, middle aged black lady on the train.   she liked it a lot.  they both said it looked good on me; I wear it well.    that was nice.  I mean I know it does, that's why I've decided to keep it this way for a bit, now that its warm again (fucking finally) .... but it's always nice to be confirmed by another human being or two, every once in awhile.  and the vast contrast in the two humans it came from was pretty cool... there was something oddly satisfying about it....

 I'm also really fucking pissed off that I'm not seeing Children of Bodom tonight.  :(   This is probably gonna be the last time they'll play a decent set and I'm not going to fuckin be there.     I'd been looking forward to that :(   fuckin lame, and it's not even like I'm doing anything cool now instead.

well then. I'm gonna go find something to do and try to get rid of this insane urge to smash something.  I wish I was going up to see my friends tonight to have some more fun HATCHET TIME, right now, instead of next weekend.  grrrrrr.
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what a fucking lame ass goddamned Friday.   wow.